Saturday, July 30, 2011

Why are we surprised?

So I have a confession.... lately I have been thinking about death... a lot. Obviously I think the reason is because of everything that is going on with my mom. While her prognosis is very very hopeful, I can't help but sometimes let my mind wander to the worst. However, I am not only thinking of the possibility of loosing her... I am thinking of the reality that one day I am going to go through the loss of someone I love very deeply... or those that love me very deeply with go through the loss of me. I know.... kinda morbid thinking, but this is what is taking a lot of my thoughts lately. Mostly when I am alone or when I lay in bed at night trying to fall asleep.
This is how my thoughts go.... I am not guaranteed tomorrow, none of us are. However, we kind of have this mentality that we are going to live forever! I mean I look at my boys and think of all the things they will go on to do in life.... but how do I know they will get to accomplish all of these things I dream up for them? I don't! Just because they are little they are not guaranteed tomorrow. Just this morning on the news was a mom and dad trying to raise money for their 18 month old to have a liver/lung transplant (sorry I can't remember which one), a transplant that he will not live without. 18 months old! Thats way too young to die, but it happens, it happens everyday. We know this, we know that death is a part of life... but like my dad said to me the other day "when something like this happens (talking about my mom's illness) we are surprised". It's true!! We think we are invincible until something bad happens and reality wakes us up!
My thoughts on death..I don't know, I will be completely honest, it kind of freaks me out! Not that I don't know where I am going! I KNOW beyond a shadow of a doubt that Jesus died just so I could have a place with Him in Heaven and I know that Heaven will be better than anything this world can offer me... but the thought of just not being here anymore, or someone I love dearly not being here anymore is kinda scary to me. Sometimes I lay in bed at night and cuddle on up to Isaac to feel some comfort, or I go into Aaron's room and hold his little hand and watch him sleep or go and pick Micah up and snuggle with him because my time with them will be over too soon... no matter if its tomorrow or 50 years from now, I know it won't be long enough so I am trying my best to not worry about the things I can't change and treasure the time that I have been blessed with.

Friday, July 29, 2011

Food for the baby :)

So yesterday Micah had his 4 month checkup (a little late, he will be 5 months next week!). He is a healthy growing boy... very chunky :) Because he is so big I haven't given baby food too much thought. Aaron started solids at 3 months , he needed the extra calories early on... Micah however has been content with just nursing. At his checkup yesterday I asked about if I should start them or not and he advised to go ahead and start because if you wait longer than 6 months babies can get weird about texture and such.... makes since to me. Aaron has always been a great eater and like I said he started foods early on. Also, I was pretty excited because I have anxiously been awaiting the day I could start making his food.
With Aaron I made his baby food... but I didn't really enjoy it. I used my food processor and honestly it just didn't work great. I love my food processor, but not for making baby food... especially the first stages of baby food that are a little more runny... they would leak right out. So when my mom bought me the Baby Bullet when I was about 7 months pregnant with #2 I was soooo excited!!! From day one Aaron kept asking me if we could make the baby some food, ha ha, I was as anxious as he was.
So today I went to the grocery store and bought some carrots, then I went to the farmers market and bought some apples, peaches and blueberries. I got home and went to work! First I made the apples, I peeled and cut 4 apples and put them on the stove in about 4 tbls of water and cooked them on low for about 12 minutes. When they were soft I put them in the baby bullet and in about 20 sec I had smooth silky baby food!! I was thrilled! So next I moved onto the carrots, I peeled and then put 6 carrots in my steamer, after about 20 minutes of steaming they were ready! I put them in the bullet with some water and in about 2 minutes I had carrot baby food!!

(the carrots took a little longer and I was a little aggravated ... but then I remembered I had 2 blades, and I probably should have switched those out). With 4 apples and 6 carrots, a total cost of about $2.50 I made a weeks worth of baby food (giving him apples around lunch time and carrots at dinner) so I am thrilled!!! And I think Micah is too! :)

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Semi-homemade spaghetti sauce & Nutella cupcakes!

I have two recipes to share today! I am calling the first "semi-homemade spaghetti sauce" because if it were a true homemade sauce I would have tomatoes in there somewhere... but I don't. However it wasn't just a jar of sauce either and it turned out wonderfully! So here it is!

1 lb lean ground beef (i am on a ground turkey kick and used that instead)
1/2 lb sliced fresh mushrooms
1 large onion, chopped
1 small green pepper, chopped
4 garlic cloves, minced
2 tbls olive oil
2 cans (8oz each) tomato sauce
1 can (10 oz)condensed tomato soup, undiluted
1 tsp dried basil
1/2 tsp salt
1/2 tsp dried rosemary
1/2 tsp dried oregano
1/4 tsp pepper

In a large skillet , cook beef, mushrooms, peppers, onions and garlic in oil over medium heat. Once meat is brown drain and stir in sauce, soup and seasonings. Bring to a boil, reduce heat and simmer fr 45-60 minutes. Serve over spaghetti :) easy and so good!

AND NOW FOR WHAT SO MANY OF YOU HAVE ASKED FOR!! The recipe for Nutella Cupcakes!
Self-frosting Nutella Cupcakes

1/4 cup butter, at room temperature
1/4 cup canola or mild vegetable oil
3/4 cup sugar
3 large eggs
1 tsp. vanilla
1 3/4 cup all purpose flour
2 tsp. baking powder
1/4 tsp. salt
1/4-1/2 cup Nutella, at room temperature

Preheat the oven to 325F.

In a medium bowl, beat the butter, oil and sugar with an electric mixer until light and fluffy. Add the eggs and vanilla and beat until smooth.

In a small bowl, stir together the flour, baking powder and salt; add to the butter mixture and beat on low speed just until combined. The batter will be thick. It needs to be in order to swirl in the Nutella!

Divide the batter between 12 paper-lined muffin cups. Drop a spoonful of Nutella on top of each, and swirl through the batter with the tip of a bamboo skewer, knife or other pointy object. Bake for 25-30 minutes, or until springy to the touch. Tilt them in the pan to help them cool. Makes a dozen cupcakes.

This recipe came form Pinterest... so if you haven't yet checked it out, maybe this will make you want too! :)

Monday, July 18, 2011

Let's work it out

I think I am like most people when it comes to conflict. I hate it, I want to avoid it at all cost, and when it happens I sometimes feel like my day has been completely ruined. I can get worked up and just be in a bad mood for the rest of the day.
Today, the boys and I were going over to my mom's and when we got in the car it was , as Aaron would say "super hot" he despises getting into a hot car. So when I was getting him in his seat I told him not to touch the metal part of his buckle cause that would hurt, well he starts asking me.."the black part?" I said "no the metal part" he says "the red part?" I said "no, Aaron , the metal part... you can't see it now" he says "yes I can" (he has been very argumentative lately. I said "Aaron, don't argue, when I get you unbuckled I will show you". So we get to my mom's and I unbuckle him and he says "so, what were you talking about?" I said "here this part, this is metal" he says "oh, you were right, I couldn't see it. Sorry mom." I gave him a hug and said its ok, and then he says "see mom, we just had to work it out" . It made me giggle, and it also made me ponder... thats how life is, isn't it? Conflict happens, we disagree with others, we won't always see eye to eye but we have to work it out... thats it. Love prevails! We talk, we hug and life goes on!